Chappell Roan has spoken candidly about struggling with suicidal thoughts (Picture: Michael Hickey/Getty Images)
US pop sensation Chappell Roan’s career has reached unprecedented heights this year, thanks to the viral success of songs such as Red Wine Supernova and Good Luck, Babe!
However, while she may appear to have it all together on the surface, Chappell has now opened up about struggling with mental health behind closed doors and how severely her journey to fame impacted her.
The 26-year-old star – real name Kayleigh Rose Amstutz – signed her first record deal in 2017, having been snapped up after releasing an original song on YouTube.
From there, she initially had a steady rise before her debut album, The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess, dropped in 2023 and garnered a cult following by early 2024, being ‘branded a sleeper hit’.
As of September this year, the Missouri-born songwriter has toured with Olivia Rodrigo, topped the charts, and acquired almost 45million monthly listeners on Spotify.
But just two years ago, she contemplated taking her own life.
She’s had an unprecedented rise to fame (Picture: Steve Jennings/FilmMagic)
Speaking to Rolling Stone for her cover story, Chappell recalled struggling with hypomania, a common feature of bipolar II that involves elevated mood and hyperactivity.
‘I wasn’t sleeping,’ she said of the period in 2021. ‘I was on the incorrect meds. I had the energy and the delusion and realised that this app is fueled off of mental illness. Straight up.’
The following year, she entered outpatient therapy.
While she’d felt suicidal at other points in her life, this was the first time she actually planned how she would end her life.
Thankfully, the singer was able to realise she needed help, forcing herself to go back to treatment straight after a gig in front of 9,000 people in San Francisco.
‘I realised I can’t live like this. I can’t live being so depressed or feel so lost that I want to kill myself. I just got my s**t together,’ she said.
Grateful for the support she received before her stardom became overwhelming, she added: ‘I would not have been able to handle any of this even a year ago today. It would’ve just been too much.’
Chappell has been open about her boundaries after fearing for her safety (Picture: Todd Owyoung/NBC via Getty Images)
Despite her mental health battles, Chappell has remained consistently on top of things with regard to her career.
At the end of 2022, she had booked and sold out a full headline tour – but was keen not to rush into a decision with a new label.
‘I put the labels through hell,’ she declared. ‘Hell. I was like, “Give me a [pitch] deck on how you would market me. Give me a deck on what you would do with my career. What do you see in five years? If you can’t even do it in a hypothetical situation, you don’t know how to figure it out. I’m definitely not signing to your a**”.’
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Source:: Metro
