Comedian Nikki Glaser, who currently stars in her new reality TV series, Welcome Home Nikki Glaser? admits she used to be “jealous” of her own Instagram.
She would look at the photos and posts of herself looking happy and engaged, wishing she was actually the woman she saw smiling in the photos she shared. But Glaser faced a number of addictions and felt empty and sad inside. She recently reflected on the curious reactions she’d receive and what she wished others knew about addiction.
Nikki Glaser wants people to know that everyone is struggling
“What I want people to know is that everyone is struggling,” she said on Addiction Talk a talk show hosted on Facebook Live by American Addiction Centers.
Nikki Glaser |Weiss Eubanks/NBCUniversal/NBCU Photo Bank
“And what really freed me was that you’re not choosing this,” she continued. “No one would choose to be an addict. It’s a hard thing to go through. It is a disease. I felt that the thing that freed me from most of the stuff was embracing that this wasn’t my fault. I didn’t choose it. It may look like that to other people who don’t understand it. It may look like that to yourself, that you’ve failed, that you’ve relapsed. Who would choose to relapse?”
Glaser added, “It’s not a choice. This is something you are doing. You’re doing your best. And I’m always doing my best. And sometimes that looks really messy. But if I was able to be better, I would. I can’t. And I think once I forgave myself for the things that seemed under my control. And I let go and I stopped trying to control things that truly were never my fault to begin with. I was able to be free of it.”
She used to say she ‘caught’ anorexia
Glaser has also openly talked about facing down an eating disorder, which began in her teens. “My senior year of high school, I got anorexia big time. It hit me in March, and by July, I was hospitalized. It was like, boom, finally, I was good at something,” she told Bialik on her podcast, Mayim Bialik’s Breakdown (via Yahoo Life).
On Addiction Talk, she also addressed how she joked about anorexia. “I always say I caught anorexia and I’m really careful about saying that because I think that that was what prevented me from getting help for so long was that I felt like I had chosen this and that everyone I was hurting with it. Like all of the – ‘Just eat a sandwich!’ There’s so much shame involved because it seems like a vain disease to have.”
“Like, oh, you just want to be thin. And now you’re being hospitalized cause you wanted to be thin. Like, how sad is that? And I just felt like, why did I do this to my family?” she wondered. Adding that she felt as though she was in control of …read more
Source:: Showbiz Cheat Sheet